Sunday, May 31, 2009

Learning to Blog...

So...I'm going to attempt to blog. I don't know if I'll have time to update this much (hence my title of my blog) but I'm going to hopefully update periodically with little stories and memories related to our family. I've been thinking about what I wanted my blog to consist of and I've decided that it will be more for me than for anyone else. A way to journal my thoughts and experiences as a new mother and also to reveal all the "Real Life" ups and downs that accompany motherhood, parenting, working, marriage, and friendships. The Rollins family lives a pretty chaotic life. I work 2 1/2 days a week 8:30-5:00 on Mondays, Wednesdays, and half a day Friday and Jeb works 5 days a week from 3:00-11:00 with Sundays and Mondays off. This makes for a pretty crazy schedule with a 1 year old. Reid usually doesn't go to sleep until 11 and I don't go to sleep until around 1 a.m. because I like to spend a little time with Jeb when he gets home (not good for me on work nights). Reid has never had a "schedule" and I will admit although I'm not a big "schedule" person for kids, he could use a little more structure, which I'll let you know how this is going in my future posts. Jeb and I don't get to see each other as often as we would like, but I'm working on trying to work Tuesdays instead of Mondays so we could spend Sundays and Mondays together as family days.
I think this blog will be a great way to organize my thoughts. I've been having sort of a hard time recently adjusting to all the different commitments in my life. I'm the kind of person that likes to commit to one thing at a time and go at it full force and now after having a child, I try to do this with some many aspects of my life that I can't relax and enjoy anything! These past three years have been a whirlwind to say the least. Since 2006 I have graduated with my Bachelor's degree, started straight into Nurse Practitioner school, bought a house, got married in the middle of Nurse Practitioner school, graduated with my Master's degree, had a baby (2 weeks before graduation), started a new career with lots of responsibility, and breastfed for an entire year (not a drop of formula!). And...I have tried to do it all PERFECTLY. That's hard! Not to mention that my hormones are freaking out making matters so much worse. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes by everything that I need to get done (that's the perfectionist coming out in me) that I lose focus and forget to enjoy life and enjoy Reid. I think it's easy for us in this busy world we live in to get wrapped up in the house needs to be spotless, or I need to be organizing photo albums, or I need to take more pictures, or I need to take more video, or I need to cook more for my family, or the baby book still isn't finished, that we forget to fast-forward into the future for a minute and think..."what will really matter?" I have to remind myself of this daily and I'm going to start setting weekly "goals" to help me learn to simply enjoy life and soak up "the moment." Oh...and I haven't figured out how to post pictures or videos yet so hopefully that will come as I get more blogger savvy.

Goal #1: Sit down and read a book to Reid every single day this week.